I doubt there's anybody else who 'gets' my Dad. He was completely 'dissed' as a child by his own mother because of an 'eye thing' (from HER side, btw). And he grew up knowing his mother out-right loved his brother, asshole, more. AND.....I haven't heard a WORD from this asshole brother since my Dad, his brother, died. WTF??? He's a sorry bastard.
Hey....Mel......don't walk in front of my car ....k???
Yet, this man, my Dad, never waned in his respect for anybody who dissed him. He never had anything bad to say about ANYONE.
You may have had your 'pain in the ass' moments', but you rocked Dad. I will Love You forever.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I miss my Mom
Wow.....I can't believe feelings can come on so strong. And after so long. The waves of grief hit me just as they did 1 day out, 2 months out, etc.
But now we're 6+ years out. And I'm taking my Mother's only grand-daughter to sign up for college classes to take in conjunction with her senior year. "She DID it, Mom. She showed up and is so interested, Mom. Can you believe we pulled this off?? Are you so proud?? She'll never be as much of a fuck up as I was!! What a coup!!" Those were my feelings leaving the registration session. And I DID physically pick up my phone to call Mom. Only to be once again hit by the wave of grief that tells me I won't be able to 'talk' to her until I 'get there'.
I miss you Mom. And I'm supposed to be a 'grown up' now. But when Jo-jo or I have really cool stuff going on, we miss you SO MUCH.
Because this message is just for you, I hope Dad hasn't driven you too nuts up there. There MUST be something to keep him busy - but I miss the hell out of him too. My world here has never been the same.
I speak of you and Dad to the kids ALL of the time - and so does Jo. Your grandkids continue to hear stories and it will never stop 'til Jo and I are gone.
It's a night where my heart is breaking missing you both.....but I still feel your Love.
But now we're 6+ years out. And I'm taking my Mother's only grand-daughter to sign up for college classes to take in conjunction with her senior year. "She DID it, Mom. She showed up and is so interested, Mom. Can you believe we pulled this off?? Are you so proud?? She'll never be as much of a fuck up as I was!! What a coup!!" Those were my feelings leaving the registration session. And I DID physically pick up my phone to call Mom. Only to be once again hit by the wave of grief that tells me I won't be able to 'talk' to her until I 'get there'.
I miss you Mom. And I'm supposed to be a 'grown up' now. But when Jo-jo or I have really cool stuff going on, we miss you SO MUCH.
Because this message is just for you, I hope Dad hasn't driven you too nuts up there. There MUST be something to keep him busy - but I miss the hell out of him too. My world here has never been the same.
I speak of you and Dad to the kids ALL of the time - and so does Jo. Your grandkids continue to hear stories and it will never stop 'til Jo and I are gone.
It's a night where my heart is breaking missing you both.....but I still feel your Love.
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